It seems unreal... my past experiences ... I am quickly approaching my 10 year since diagnosis date. SO much has changed in me over the years. I turned 40 last year (something I don't feel totally thrilled about). I was very worried about my health, but that was entirely based on imaginary fears. I regularly check my brain holes and they definitely there, so its all good hahaha. (A hole is better than a lump type maths). Anastasia and Adam are technically adults now. Leo is 10 ... I am blessed to have survived to be his mom! (As strange a mom can be)
After 6 years I have started painting again. I have found corporate life very stressful and painting is (and has been) an effective way to relieve stress. I think it may be because I am a direct person, say it like it is person. Learning to be politically correct and passive aggressive is just not in my nature. I am having the first real break in 4 years, forcing myself not to jump to the next job, be a bit selfish, look after me. So, again, another change for me is looming, this time of self awareness, authenticity in my purpose ... Maslow and all.
I am beginning to realise that we are just in a perpetual state of recreating ourselves, mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally. Constantly being upgraded (I hope!) This change is scary and exciting. It is what it is. I am not sure what it means or what will happen... more to come.